twisted heavens

it just gets to you

Sat, 27 May 2006 07:05:08 GMT

do you know the feeling that when you find something so precious that you'd think that you would keep it forever. its value to you is priceless coz you earned it well. once time has passed by, you would see some differences in it. you would ask yourself if its still worth it. some people would tell you that "you can just get a new one" and "sooner or later you'll get used to the fact you have something new". yea, lets say that it would feel good to have something new, but do you think just leaving your well earned object that you have placed time and effort on worth replacing? i dont think so.

"having you has been the best feeling ever, since the day i got you till the time you'd want to be replaced.
i've found my angels in the night. i can't let go..."

lets say its a bit dramatic because of the quote, but, my entry could apply to anything. letting go of something so precious to you would be painful if your sentimental. its being damn "viputerative" to yourself.

its been so ethreal having you. my fantasy has just burned down

Fucked up

Sat, 20 May 2006 14:47:10 GMT

wala lang... :)

this week was fucking stressful... i dont need to say more haha... nag wawala, nagdadabog, naghahampas, sumasapak, naliligaw, nagyoyosi, naduduling hahaha.. hmmm i dont know why im laughing...oh well... life is something to laugh about in the end... DRAMATIC HAHAHA...

CONFESSIONS

Thu, 18 May 2006 15:23:34 GMT

> If you're a girl, fill out the girls confessions,
> and put an 'x' next to each that apply. If you're a
> guy,
> fill out the guys, and put an 'x' next to each that
> apply also. Have fun! [Don't forget to delete the
> x's if
> you're the opposite sex =)]
>
> X_x Girl Confessions x_X
>
> [ ] I do wear make up
> [ ] When I walk by mirrors, I cant help but look
> [ ] I love pink..
> [ ] I have cried at a movie theater
> [ ] I love chocolates
> [ ] Getting flowers still makes me smile
> [ ] I've wrecked a car
> [ ] I can put mascara on without opening my
mouth
> [ ] I'd do anything for a guy
> [ ] I love cuddling
> [ ] Johnny Depp is sexy
> [ ] Gotten Detention
> [ ] If I have to dress like a ........ to get your
> attention,then forget it buddy
> [ ] I love to laugh
> [ ] Ive flashed someone/some people
> [ ] I've skinny dipped
> [ ] I like Rock
> [ ] I like rap
> [ ] I like Electronics/techno(yOu mean GaDGETs!!)
> [ ] I carry a purse everywhere
> [ ] I carry my cell phone at ALL times
> [ ] I do own a spice girls CD
> [ ] I also own a Britney Spears CD
> [ ] I play hard to get
> [ ] Boys are fun to tease
> [ ] Football is boring
> [ ] I love athletic boys
> [ ] I love rockers
> [ ] Hot guys are better then sweet guys
> [ ] Sweet guys are better than hot guys
> [ ] I prefer sweet hotty guys.
> [ ] Ive been called a tease
> [ ] Lip gloss is WAY better than lipstick
> [ ] can't leave the house without makeup
> [ ] I'm a bitch. Deal with it.
> [ ] I play video games, even when there are other
> people around
> [ ] My friends are the best, and they're important
> to me
> [ ] i am a virgin
> [ ] i am in legal age
> [ ] i have a boyfriend
> [ ] i am inlove

> o_O Guy Confessions O_o
>
> [x] I have watched ........
> [ ] I have played/cheated on a girl
> [x] Ive slept naked
> [x] I play video games
> [x] I wear boxers to bed
> [ ] Ive thrown rocks @ a girls window
> [x] Ive drank because I felt like it
> [x] I still beat my buddies up
> [ ] Of course they never beat me up
> [ ] I drive a truck/SUV
> [x] My friends and I make fun of each other...alot
> [x] I drive some type of car
> [x] I have a job
> [x] I currently have a girlfriend
> [x] My girlfriend is better than yours
> [x] I think about girls/my girl
> [x] Girls are complicated, to the tenth degree
> [ ]Im ..........
> [x] Ive forgotten to return a phone call to a
> girl...or a few
> [ ] Not all guys are the same Im one of the
> different ones
> [x] Id do anything for my girl/a girl
> [x] I tend to be shy around girls
> [x] I act like an ass on purpose
> [x] I've been flashed before
> [ ] Ive seen the Rocky Horror picture show
> [x]I play hard to get
> [ ] I aspire to one day become like the guys in Old
> School
> [ ] Im not in love
> [ ] Ive honked at a girl going down the road
> [ ] I've hit on a girl in public
> [ ] I've gotten wood in class
> [x] I've asked a hot girl for her number that I just
> met
> [x] Ive acted like a man ........
> [ ] Angelina Jolie is hot
> [ ] Pamela Anderson is hotter
> [ ]Sports over-rule everything else
> [x] I like rock music
> [ ]I like rap music
> [ ] Ive been expelled
> [x] Ive gotten detention
> [x] Cheerleaders are hot
> [ ] I have a tattoo
> [ ] Ive gotten road head
> [x] I smoke entirely too much
> [ ] Im a virgin
> [x] I respect what you have to say
> [x] And yes I care how your day went =)
> [x] Its not the external looks that matter its how
> you feel about yourself

lyrics

Fri, 12 May 2006 16:35:40 GMT

You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weaknesses
Shaking at the thought you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst ways

My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
In time, it says, "You, oh, you are so cool."
It says, "The shade across the bed, you are red, violent red."
You hollow out my hungry eyes
You hollow out my hungry eyes

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst ways

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst ways (worst ways)

I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far...

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst ways (worst ways)

I'm gonna make damn sure
I just wanna break you down so badly
I just wanna break you down so badly (damn sure)
In the worst ways (worst ways)

Wed, 03 May 2006 14:54:49 GMT

10 F A V O R I T E S
>
> TV show: not sure:)
> Flower: wala
> Alcohol: wine:)
> Color: black and purple
> Sport: alot:D
> Mall: powerplant!
> Music: funk/jazz/blues/modern rock and a little bit of emo
> Food: pinoy, chinese, japanese
> Season: summer
>
> 1 0 F A C T S
>
> Hometown: Makati!
> Height: 5'10"
> Hair color: midnight blue
> Hair length: short
> Eye color: dark brown
> Shoe size: 10
> Mood: not sure:D
> Sex: male
>
> 1 0 L O V E L I F E
>
> Have you ever been in love: yes
> Do you believe in love?: yes
> Why did your last relationship fail?: its still goin:D
> Have you ever been heartbroken?: yes
> Have you ever broken someones heart?: omgmf haha
> Have you ever fallen for your best friend?: mhmmmm
> Are you planning on getting married?: she knows
> Are you afraid of commitment?: she knows:D
>
> 1 0 T H I S O R T H A T S
>
> Love or lust? love
> Hard liquor or beer?: BOTH!:D HAHA
> Night or day? night
> Hook-ups or relationship?: relationship
> T.V. or internet?: internet
> Pepsi or coke?: SARSI
> Wild night out or romantic night in?: BOTH:D
> Saturday or Sunday?: saturday
> Colored or black and white picture?: colored
> Phone or in person?: in person
>
> 1 0 H A V E Y O U E V E R S
>
> Have you ever been caught sneaking out?: nope
> Have you ever skinny dipped?: huh
> Have you ever done something you regret?: yes.
> Have you ever bungee jumped?: nope. not plannin to
> Have you ever been on a house boat?: have one hahaha:D
> Have you ever finished an entire jaw
breaker?: yes
> Have you ever wanted someone so badly it
> hurt?: ......yes..
> Have you ever stayed up all night til the sun
came up? yup.
> Have you ever been caught by your parents with
a hickey? hahaha
> Have you ever been caught by your parents doing
> anything more than making out?: no
>
> 10 A R E Y O U S
>
> Are you missing someone right now?: yes
> Are you in love with anyone?: hmmmm
> Are you happy?: yes
> Are you talking to anyone right now? yes
> Are you bored? yes
> Are you German?: no. sana i am:D
> Are you Irish?: yuck no.
> Are you Italian?: sana
> Are your parents still married? no
> Do you like someone right now? its not called like

BULLSHIT! (my mixed thought)

Tue, 02 May 2006 17:16:36 GMT

theres this guy who im going to fuck up. Im gonna beat the hell out of him. he did not respect me. why dont you just die!!!!!! im never gonna to this again.... im thinking of going to the states... how could you do this to me??? honesty??? you complain about me not trusting you... the hell you dont even tell me everything... even the smallest details could hurt... im tired!!! bullshit!!! FLIRT!!!

lost 6663

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 17:07:11 GMT

i started off with 6. i can count on those 6, those 6 are always there for me, they are the only 6 who understood me. now i only have 3. whos next to leave because they cant take me anymore
~its up to you wether you take the 6 literally or not~

how do i feel?

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 15:49:26 GMT

music defines my feelings. mostly its the lyrics that tells you how i feel. sometimes its just the rythm, tempo and beat of the song.
this is how feel now..

I am hunting for your soul
It dwells within your heart
I lacerate the pounding flesh
Your spirits shall be mine
So rise my spirit rise!
Revel in this dead mans' body
Grip his soul, sip the blood
Life is death
A holy carnage
Ravenous
I will be your god
Carnivorous Jesus
I need your flesh
Ritual slaughter
Fill up the chalice
With the essence of your life
Liquid strengths
Trapped in your veins
I crave your blood
You must die!

To hell with you and all your friends

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 11:28:22 GMT

A'm i being played. no one takes me seriously now. to think that this day should be fucking happy. people just have to ruin it.

to hell with you and all your friends

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 04:41:45 GMT

Sad, small, sweet, so delicate
We used to be this dying breed
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this

You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and close to the window...
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about...

Who's to say you'll have to go (I could go all night)
Well say you'll have to go (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on

Sad, small, sure in porcelain
You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck
I got a bad feeling about this (when it comes to this)
I got a bad feeling about this

You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and close to the window
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about...

Who's to say you'll have to go (I could go all night)
Well say you'll have to go (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on

I got a bad feeling about this (what is this for?)
I got a bad feeling about...

Anyone will do tonight
Anyone will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Anyone will do tonight
Anyone will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Anyone (anyone) will do tonight
Anyone (anyone) will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle

Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (to hell with you and all your friends, it's on).
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
Well I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this (to hell with you and all your friends, it's on)
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
Well I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this (to hell with you and all your friends, it's on)
I'm coming over but it never was enough,
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (in you...).
I'm coming over but it never was enough,
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (in you...).
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (I am you)
I got a bad feeling about this (I am you)
I got a bad feeling about this (I am you)
I got a bad feeling about this (I am you)
I got it bad (I am you)
I got it bad
I got it bad
I got it bad
I got it bad
I got it bad

its better to die early

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 18:22:42 GMT

I have a theory... by the time we reach judgement day... God will let us view our life in the past... every single detail.. wether if its good or bad... so i was thinking... the longer we live then the longer time we will spend repenting and saying sorry... coz i bet we will sin alot before we die... i say... its better to die early rather than sin more... less suffering in the end... dont you think so?

if your wondering why i even brought up the topic about this... its because that i realized that there are alot of people dying... so i started thinking deep (people who knows me well wouldnt be surprised about this)... then i came to the point about what will happen before we reach heaven... hmmmmm.. there thats how i got to that topic... dont blame me... hahaha i cant sleep... i woke up lang now:)

its better to die early

Back in Black

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 15:12:26 GMT

Back in Black

what i mean by back in black is, i miss my old style :). i miss having the gothic rockstar look haha... you may call me a poser but why dont you just see me while im rolling on my drum set haha:) kiddin. i love the gothic rockstar look:).. as i said in my small bio, i like funk/ modern rock/ blues haha.. medyo malayo sa goth pero may modern rock parin:)).. well thats what i mean by back in black...

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 14:55:17 GMT

"my first serious entry"

today.. well, it was fun.. francis was with me the whole day. we went to rockwell. we hung out there. after, bianca came over.. francis and bianca did "their thing" haha.. malibog haha. im not in the mood to make kwuento now but i just like putting animations haha.. sige later nalang if ever im in the mood:D haha tc
oh btw... im missin someone now :( oklang hahaha later

just trying something out

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 03:54:55 GMT

im just trying something out :D

Paint it black

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 02:50:14 GMT

i have an LJ hahaha wala lang

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they’re all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens ev’ry day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I’ll fade away and not have to face the facts
It’s not easy facin’ up when your whole world is black

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the settin’ sun
My love will laugh with me before the mornin’ comes

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
Hmm, hmm, hmm,...
I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah!